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Hamsters for the Holiday

Isn’t it funny that I checked my own web site, half expecting it to be magically updated with details of my Thanksgiving holiday? But no, providing the words here is my job. Actually, I’m thankful for that control, because I can selectively censor out all of the weekend’s less-than-banner moments that appear to be feeding into an alarming stress-induced hair loss. This year, all I want for Christmas is a wig.

And, I didn’t even try to go shopping! But I guess my holiday plight was comparable to that of a Black Friday shopper, in that I stood in a line of cars on various turnpikes in anticipation of euphoric merry-making, only to reach my destination and find out… they were all out of the proverbial mechanical hamsters.

What’s up with this Zhu Zhu frenzy, anyway? As we breakfasted this morning, I found a CNN video of toy-store crowds clamoring for the Zhu Zhu hamster. Displays of rampant American shopping go over well at my breakfast table, and Mr. P and I chortled over the inanity of the consumer desperation. I must be rubbing off on my husband, because he uncharacteristically said “Crazy effing Americans.” People are lining up for squeaking, chirping, scooting robotic rodents. In some parts of the country, you know what people are lining up for? Government assistance checks. Medical care. Bread.

I guess it was too much to expect Americans to shuck off the chains of material want after a mere year-long recession. After all, the Zhu Zhu craze feels almost pious in its simplicity, and it’s cheap enough, with even the price-gouged Zhu Zhus still costing less than $45. Still, parents should perhaps forgo the Zhu Zhu and seek out this season’s real hard-to-find, gotta-have Christmas present for their tikes: the H1N1 flu shot. Merry Christmas, kids. Santa brought you inoculations!

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Thankstaking (2009)

Thanksgiving is nigh. It snuck up on me this year, what with my new job and various other time-sucking endeavors commanding all my idle thoughts. And the precious few free brain cycles are already focused on goddamn Christmas presents. Look what you’ve done to me, product peddlers of America! Are you happy that I’m so preoccupied with mentally dissecting the hidden material wants and needs of my family and friends that I can’t even fully focus on the impending gluttony of food, drink, and football?

Right now, I’m in the mental company of approximately 38.4 million other Americans, all focused on the same thing: traveling at least 50 miles to our chosen places of revelry. What I don’t understand is, if the U.S. population is 304 million, that means only 12% of us are on the move—so why is this slim minority so uniquely capable of overwhelming our entire transportation infrastructure?

Anecdotally, most adults claim to prefer Thanksgiving over Christmas, which is curious, considering how Thanksgiving has been demoted to a mere pitstop on the highway to Christmas mania. The turkey hasn’t even cooled before the Mariah Carey begins to howl, the decorations get yanked from the attic, and hundreds of thousands of bargain-hunters stampede into big-box stores, ready to club each other for door-buster TVs. Has the recession cooled our ardor for the Stuff Stampede—or will it only fan the flames?

A sampling of what I’m thankful for: that I have a rewarding full-time job at a company that will pay me to enjoy a four-day weekend with my loved ones. I’m thankful for my family and friends, who have so patiently humored my idiosyncrasies over the years. I’m thankful for mountains, for avocados, for snow, for Armani perfumes, for owls, for Nova on PBS, for my favorite light-blue sweater, for libraries, for Seinfeld reruns, for waking up each day with a sense of purpose and wonder.

But this year, as we offer up our annual tokens of gratitude, I wonder: who exactly takes all this thanks? We give the thanks… but to whom?

I picture it all spiraling into a void, a pit of Thankstaking, never to return. And it never, ever says, “You’re welcome.”

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Terrine de Pieds de Porc: A Love Story in Meat Paste

Yesterday, Mr. P undertook an ambitious culinary project: constructing a terrine de pieds de porc aux herbes.

Let’s begin with nomenclature. Pieds de porc—a phrase that floats off the tongue with rustic elegance—translates, rather devastatingly, to “pig’s feet.” Not to be confused with the quaintly euphemistic pieds de cochon, which the French sometimes use when naming restaurants. English, in its typical pragmatic shrug, calls them pig’s feet or trotters.

A terrine, for those who’ve not been emotionally wounded by one, is a sort of pâté pressed into an earnest-looking ceramic loaf pan. Think meatloaf, but make it Francophone.

I was once suspicious of such dishes, lumping them under the broad category of “questionable textures.” Then came a snowy lunch in the French Alps: two terrines (rabbit and pork) laid before me, no menu, no options. I was starving. I relented. Reader, I devoured. When the server arrived to clear them for the next course, I briefly considered throwing myself across the table in protest. Don’t bother with the stew. I’ve met my match.

So why pig’s feet? Our meat CSA occasionally offers “extras”—a euphemism that could mean organ meats or simply the parts that make you confront the living-ness of animals. This month, the more traditional cuts had been snapped up, so Mr. P returned from the pick-up with jowl, shank, and a frozen bag of what appeared to be—because they were—disembodied hooves. It was like receiving a special delivery from the witch in Hansel and Gretel.

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Pig’s feet are reportedly rich in gelatin, which is essential if you’re attempting a terrine that won’t collapse like a metaphor for modern life.

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Mr. P, undeterred by their anatomical frankness, did all the work. First, he soaked the feet overnight in salted water—something between a brine and a ritual. Then he boiled them, skimming the foamy byproduct that signals yes, this is how you make the kitchen smell like barn and broth at once.

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Now, the aromatics. The French, of course, will not make soup without deploying an entire root system: leeks, celery, carrot, garlic. Parsley, tarragon, thyme. And a quantity of wine that feels not unlike bribing the dish to turn out well.

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The feet—skinned, split, and singularly fleshy—were the stars. Into the stockpot they went, along with the jowl and shank, to simmer for hours until the meat surrendered.

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Bones were removed; broth was strained; flesh was seasoned and pressed into the terrine dish with the concentrated cooking liquid.

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Then came the hardest part: refrigeration. After a night of suspense, we sliced into it. The result? Dense, glistening, richly seasoned.

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It leaned more rillette than terrine, Mr. P noted—though I lack the technical fluency to argue the point. It was tasty, fatty, shot through with herby depth and a kind of textural assertiveness that tells you gelatin did, in fact, show up.

A triumph. A gelatinous, porcine, oddly beautiful triumph. But let’s not forget where this all began: with the feet. Not figuratively—the actual feet of a fucking pig. Skinned, boiled, and disassembled like a bio lab project, only to reemerge the next day as something you might serve at a wine lunch in Provence.

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Cheese Smuggling for Dumb Blondes

We were strategizing how to smuggle cheese back into America after our upcoming French vacation. Real love is planning crimes together.

Ultimately, the whole conspiracy was moot—the U.S. Customs site says hard cheeses are “generally admissible,” which is the kind of intentionally vague phrasing that gives full authority to whatever Border Patrol agent is working the 5 a.m. shift at JFK and how charitably he views your dairy.

But the plotting was good for us. It’s healthy for a marriage to work through high-stakes hypotheticals. And crucially, I refused to let Mr. P take any risk. His lawful presence here depends on never becoming a name in a federal database. Me, though?

“Here’s the plan,” I said, after we circled through the options. “I pack the cheese. We buy legal foie gras at Charles de Gaulle. We declare the foie at U.S. Customs. You hand it to the officer like a fancy bribe. The foie is the decoy. The cheese sails through unnoticed.”

“And if they search your bag?” he asked.

“I say I didn’t know cheese was dairy.”

He stared at me. “What?”

“Think about it,” I said. “The form probably says ‘no dairy.’ So I act confused. ‘Wait… cheese is dairy?’” I widened my eyes. “‘I thought dairy was, like, milk.’”

“They’ll never buy that.”

“Oh, sweetheart,” I said. “You’re too smart to understand how fucking dumb some people are. I guarantee there are Americans out there who genuinely don’t know cheese is dairy.”

He still looked skeptical.

“They are not handing out $10,000 fines to some tall, confused blonde who thinks dairy means milk and packed a 10-pound cheese wheel by accident. That’s not a threat. That’s a sitcom.”

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Unfriended: Not the Word We Wanted, but the Word We Deserve

The New Oxford American Dictionary declared unfriend the Word of the Year for 2009—a verb that needs no footnote to anyone who’s ever added a co-worker out of politeness and then recoiled at their updates about gout, MLM schemes, or soup.

Sure, some use unfriending as a passive-aggressive form of social theater. Not me. I keep my friends close and my enemies visible, ideally within reach of their Farmville yields and Mafia Wars stats.

I’m not a compulsive Facebooker, but I do a weekly lurk. I did once unfriend a girl from high school I’d spoken to exactly twice—she kept posting real-time dispatches from the heart of an abusive relationship. “He’s yelling at me right now and the kids are crying!” And the most disturbing part? I didn’t feel concern. Just… disgusted voyeurism, like a stranger had flashed me on the subway. So I banished her. Click. “I smite thee from thine orb of cohorts.”

Of the other nominees for Word of the Year, I had a soft spot for intexticated (because it’s delightful to say), funemployed (because it sounds like a state of grace), birther (because that entire sideshow felt like a failed SNL sketch), and teabagger (because, well, I’m not made of stone). As for tramp stamp—lexicographers may just be catching on, but the rest of us have been trading that gem since dial-up.

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The Deppths of Sexy

The Sexiest Man Alive? Probably!
Really, People magazine? Really?

Today People magazine proclaimed that Johnny Depp is the sexiest man alive (here), prompting many other people to wonder if People has seen a recent photograph of the 46-year old actor, who is reportedly hiding from America in the French countryside. Long gone is the baby face with totally cool guileless eyes that seemed to gently rout through every nook and cranny of a woman’s mind, body and soul. Let’s face it, the man’s face is becoming discernably saggy, his facial hair scraggy, and his eyes baggy.

This is Depp’s second time at the helm of living sexy men, having also won in 2003. Depp joins the pantheon of fellow double winners Brad Pitt, George Clooney and Richard Gere. (Who wants to bet that Brad Pitt will go for a third time? How about a fourth time? How about posthumously?)

People magazine touted Depp as “the king of cool with the killer cheekbones” and “Hollywood’s most irresistible iconoclast,” which confirms the aphorism that attractiveness is only half of what P/people consider when assessing male sexiness. A quick scan of other recent winners — Matt Damon, Matthew McConaughey, Ben Affleck, Pierce Brosnan — reveal intangible qualities beyond mere physicality: maturity, sophistication, integrity, a certain ruggedness. More notable is how each man was arguably past his physical prime by the time he is anointed (except Ben Affleck, who never quite reached his prime).

Old ladies like me will remember the first time they ever swooned over Johnny Depp, way back when he was the hunk of 21 Jump Street. (His character’s name was Tom Hanson, which surprised me, for I honestly thought his character’s name was Johnny Depp.) Then Richard Grieco joined the show as Booker, challenging but never surpassing Johnny’s hearthrob supremacy. Wasn’t there some episode when the two faced-off, ostensibly about some detective thing, but we all knew that they were fighting for wall space on the bedrooms of every adolescent female in America? (For the record, I was a sickie who favored Peter DeLuise, but only because nobody else liked him and I figured my “chances” were better. I employed this strategy a surprising number of times, including Donnie as my favored NKOTB, William as my favored Baldwin brother, and Duff as my favored Guns N Roses member.)
So, is Johnny Depp really the sexiest man alive? Of course not. It seems Hollywood is running out of plausible candidates worthy of universal sex appeal. PerhapsPeople magazine should look to other arenas, like sports (Tom Brady!), letters (Po Bronson!), and of course politics (Barack Obama!) instead of recycling aging actors who inspire more nostalgia than passion.

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Viva Flibanserin!

An antidepressant called Flibanserin is being hailed as the ‘Female Viagra’ after it has been shown to increase libido in women (here on BBC). The drug was ineffective as an antidepressant, but the women in the clinical trials reported “significant improvements in their sexual desire and satisfactory sexual experiences.” And… they were still depressed? What more do they want, a pill that cleans bathrooms? A pill that gives them equal pay for equal work?

Flibanserin may come to market in two years, no doubt re-branded with a sexier name that conjures lust pills rather than insecticidal chemicals, and with a flashy ad campaign featuring a middle-aged cougar innocently toying with her prey for the camera as she and we imagine all of the hot sex that will commence when… um, turn off the television, I have to go barf.

The serendipitous discovery of Flibanserin is being compared to the discovery of Viagra, which was originally intended to be a heart medicine until its aphrodisiac effects were observed. Or so the story goes. We all know that the discovery of Viagra was a triumphant cumulation of hundreds of years of modern science, which was founded solely for the purpose of allowing men to attain hours-long erections. Is it a coincidence that Isaac Newton died an 84-year old virgin, and 400 years later we have a pill that cures erectile dysfunction?

According to the article, some doctors are “skeptical about the need” for pills to boost female sex drive. And judging by the women in the Viagra/Cialis/Levitra commercials, I’d have to concur. They’re unflaggingly rearin’ to go, spurred by the mere idea that their partner ingested an erectile dysfunction drug 15 minutes to 36 hours ago that may or may not land him in the emergency room with a boner that just won’t go away. It makes her feel wanted… deeply, almost pathologically wanted.

Indeed, women are often told that their sexuality is all in their head and that any dysfunction is psychological, like “you don’t want to have sex with your husband because he doesn’t help with the housework.” And some researchers say that a woman’s flagging sex drive may be “normal.” Well, just because a woman’s loss of sex drive may be mental or age-related doesn’t mean that there is no need for a pill that will enable her to see past her partner’s inadequacies or transcend her ebbing estrogen! For what is science for if not to enliven our plight with consistent, pleasurable sexual encounters?

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First Day!

Today was my first day at my new job. It’s sort of a misnomer to call it my “new job,” since I’ve been consulting for this company for the past two years. Perhaps that’s why my nervousness wasn’t centered around if I would like the work, or if I could live up to expectations, or if I’d get along with my co-workers. No, instead, all weekend long I obsessed about my first day outfit.

I wanted to really ‘dress to impress’ on my first day. Soon I’ll go back to my normal casual slob chic, but on the first day, I wanted people to think, “By virtue of her wardrobe, Meredith is a professional to be taken seriously!”

Mr. P thought that dressing up on my first day would only emphasize my subsequent nonchalance, although I reminded him that I employed a similar bait-and-switch technique in the beginning stages of our relationship. I’d spend an hour grooming and dressing in preparation for our every encounter. As he became more attached to me, I gradually grew more casual to the point where “doing my hair” involves a big ole’ hair clip and “make-up” is a coat of lip balm.

And now, when I do dress up, Mr. P is witness to this ugly backstory involving myriad outfit changes, mirror obsessing, and “Does this dress go with these shoes?” I modeled 5 outfits, and he dismissed one outfit as too fancy, another as too summery, another as too sexy, another as too scary, and another as looking like something his grandmother would wear. “You mean she would have worn it when she was my age, or when she was 90?” I asked. “Because, you know, it makes a difference.”

I ended up wearing the dress that Grandma P would have worn when she was 60, because I believe Mr. P mistakes “retro” for “antiquated,” and also because it’s a lightweight dress that I want to squeeze one more wearing out of before the cold weather comes in earnest.

Of course, I wound up being overdressed, and none of my new co-workers could have cared less what clothes I wore… although, at a meeting, one middle-aged woman seemed impressed that I wore a watch, because she said that only old people wear watches. “Young people use cell phones to know the time,” she said.

“Well, my watch is much nicer than my cell phone,” I said, and everyone laughed. Who needs nice clothes to dazzle people when you’ve got unwitting wit, after all?

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Requiem for a Commute

Last Thursday was my last day at my old job. (My new job starts on Monday). I was saddened to leave the company where I’ve been for 8 years (minus those 18 months when I left to work at a doomed start-up before returning, tail firmly between legs). I’ll miss the people, I’ll miss the work, but above all, I’ll miss the commute.

I’m the type of nostalgia-prone person who memorializes events as they are happening. So on Wednesday (my second-to-last day, and Veterans Day as well so there were significantly less fellow commuters than usual) I brought along my archaic digital camera to visually render my beloved commute for posterity.

First, I walk to Mass Ave towards the bike path. Greeting me on Mass Ave is an aging commercial strip with a bunch of sad-sack stores such as the Hair-Port USA, which according to the neon-orange sign in the window has been ‘under new management’ for at least two years. “It’s Time for a Supersonic Cut!” Oh, I wish it was, but it’s 7:30am and I’m on my way to work.

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On Mass Ave, I could grab a bus to Harvard Square… if I wanted to shave a few years off of my life by standing on an alternately careening, alternately screeching to a halt vehicle for 30 minutes. So I walk past the bus stop, and this “unofficial” bus stop erected by a local resident. Unfortunately, it’s too far from the actual bus stop to get any use, and I’ve never sat there, but it’s nice to have options.

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From there, it’s just a hop skip and jump to the bike path. There’s a brief view of the lovely Spy Pond…

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And then I hit the path, which is typically busy with commuters, exercisers, and people picking up their dogs’ poop (not pictured).

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After about a mile, the Alewife T station rears its big ugly concrete head.

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There’s always a train waiting at Alewife, and I snag a seat even on busy days. I then devour as much as the New York Times as I can in however long it takes the MBTA to deliver me to South Station (25 minutes on a good day, 40 minutes on an exceptionally bad day). Normally the train becomes quite packed, but on Veteran’s Day I had enough room to do Sun Salutations… if I had wanted to.

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I surface in downtown Boston. I get a jolt of energy from the hurried streams of fellow workforce warriors plowing to their offices amid the vibrant urban cacophony of horns and sirens. I walk past the Federal Reserve and across the Fort Point Channel, just beyond which is my former office.

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Eight hours later, I emerge from my office and head back to South Station. South Station at dusk… always a welcome sight!

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Most days, I head off to my yoga class in Cambridge. Other days I have errands to run, places to go, people to meet, French classes to fumble my way through. Oh, I’ll miss this commute, for it allowed me to think of myself as a Bostonian as opposed to a suburbanite who is just visiting.

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Ar, Fetch Me Dryer Sheets

The staid sign outside of this Cambridge laundromat says “Wash ‘N Dry,” but inside you’ll discover a weird and wonderful pirate-themed environment in which to launder your clothes. I live too far away to even consider doing laundry at Captain Bubbles, and the place doesn’t quite meet my exacting standards for laundromat cleanliness, but it makes me happy to know that such a place exists.

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