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Believing in the Bunny

Today I asked a co-worker who has young children if his kids still believed in the Easter Bunny. “No, we never tried to make them believe in the Easter Bunny,” he said. “I have a hard enough time lying about Santa Claus. I don’t think they’d fall for the Easter Bunny.”

To a young child, the idea of a human-sized bunny hiding eggs and baskets of candy in the house is just as plausible as the idea of a single man delivering stacks of presents to every Christian household in the course of a night by means of a flying sleigh. In fact, I’d argue it’s even more plausible. Because the legend of Santa Claus is so detailed, there’s a lot to doubt: The presents are made by elves? Santa personally maintains a list of who deserves presents? He keeps yearly tabs on my pant size? He puts everyone’s presents in his sleigh? These wingless reindeer fly? He really eats all those cookies? (My mother told me once that he fed most of the cookies to the reindeer.)

The Easter Bunny, on the other hand, doesn’t have a lot of myth to live up to. Little is told about his personal life or history; indeed, he’s a mysterious figure who simply enters the house, drops some candy into a basket, hids the basket somewhere in the house, and then hops away to the next house. Hey, it could happen.

After the first Christmas that I knew for sure that it was my parents putting the presents under the tree, when Easter rolled around, I asked, “Does this mean you’re the Easter Bunny too?” They seemed a little surprised that I still nurtured this Easter Bunny fantasy, perhaps figuring that the destroying the Santa Claus belief had matured my thinking about magical holiday icons in general. They confirmed that yes, they were the Easter Bunny. “And the tooth fairy?” I asked, already knowing their answer, sullen with the realization that life is a lot less magical than previously thought.

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Needled

This week I’ve been as prickly as a saguaro cactus. As usual, I blame the weather. The Weather Channel keeps saying it’s will be warm so I dress like it’s going to be warm, only to have a cruel Canadian-sourced wind nearly rip my loose spring clothes off my body.

I’m not the only one on edge. This evening I witnessed a fight on the Red Line between two middle-aged women. It started immediately after the doors closed at South Station. “You keep hitting my with your ELBOW,” I heard one woman say near me. I turned and saw a large black woman with huge helmet hair glaring at an equally large white woman who was knitting with circular needles, who snapped, “Well EXCUSE me. I have my bag in my lap and this is the only way I can DO IT.” “Find a way to do it without HITTING me,” the black woman said, and then stood up and just started bellowing. She must’ve have a hell of a day. I didn’t think the knitter had it in her to pace such insane public rage, but she started yelling in this weird, hysterical whine. When the doors opened at Downtown Crossing – one stop and about 90 seconds later – T personnel was beckoned to intervene. Both woman were promptly taken off the train and everyone sort of shook their heads in a “that was sad but I’m glad I got to see it” sort of way.

While I’m not so revved up that I’d do anything like that… the following things inexplicably peeved me today:

  • The guy with glasses and a mini-goatee on the recumbent bike at the gym who was reading Hesse’s Siddhartha. Either you want to read about the spiritual journey of an Indian man, or you want toned hamstrings. Decide.
  • CNN’s headline for the article about Winnie the Pooh getting a star on the Walk of fame (“Star wears red shirt, no pants to Walk of Fame ceremony,” here). Because I clicked the link, expecting something a little more scandalous than Pooh.
  • The software salesman who twice use the word “automagically” during a demo to my work group. I know it’s old-school programmer jargon, but this is the 21st century. We know your software is not magic.
  • The woman walking her dog along the Charles River this morning who thanked her dog for heeding her command to “Stop. Stop. Stop.” eating geese shit. “Thank you,” she said to her jet-black hound, as if he had just given her a stock tip.

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Opening Day: It’s deja vu all over again

Today is Fenway Park’s 95th Opening Day, starting the annual five-month Red Sox season of endless small-talk about injuries, contracts, ticket prices, Yankees, and gossip culled from Boston Dirt Dogs. Perhaps my loathing of the Red Sox comes from being surrounded by literal fanatics, like when I was a pre-teen in the midst of New Kids on the Block mania and felt them to be talentless boobs (correctly, time told).

But the fact remains: I’m simply not a baseball person. Many people wax lyrical about how baseball is a metaphor for life; how the players with their no-nonsense grit and determination are our modern-day heroes; how it’s the incremental differences in each game that determines the ultimate winner. Perhaps that is my problem. I don’t see baseball’s poetry; I see a drawn-out repetitive game in a long, boring season.

Football is a more apt metaphor for life. For one thing, baseball doesn’t have a clock, and life revolves around time. Then there’s the constant turmoil. From the moment the football snaps, chaos: Bodies flying into one another, the quarterback controlling the action with his decision as to where the ball goes, and the players either sticking to their pre-determined jobs or going where they see an opportunity to excell. The ball can go nowhere or end up in the other team’s end zone. The possibilities are endless, and the action is constant.

Today a co-worker who is a particularly ardent Red Sox fan asked if I minded if he “blasted” (his words) the Opening Day game on a radio, at 2pm on a Tuesday. I said “I guess not” in a way that reflected my lack of enthusiasm, and he looked at me like I was a total bitch for not panting at the thought of hearing a baseball game at work. And this guy is a very nice and congenial man. I can only guess it’s the baseball fervor.

I wanted to ask him why it’s so important to hear the Opening Day game. Because it’s not the first game of the season; they’ve played about five already. It’s Fenway Park’s opening day. It’s only a special game if you have tickets to go to the ball park, because there’s about 160 more games left in the season, all of which count just as much as this one. If a trip to the World Series depended on it, I would consent in a non-passive aggressive way. But it crystallized why Red Sox fans annoy me. They think that the Red Sox are so holy that anything done in their name is permissible. Whether it be rioting in the street or forcing your co-workers to listen to radio broadcasts, it’s all okay, because the Red Sox are sacred.

Morris Raphael Cohen, a Jewish philosopher who said a lot of heavy things about pragmatism, logical positivism, and legal theory, is primarily remembered today for declaring baseball to be America’s national religion. And I don’t like people forcing their baseball religion on me anymore than I like Christians forcing their doctrine on me. You believe Jesus is magic? You believe the Red Sox are sacrosanct? Fine, but don’t compel me listen to the worship.

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Movie Review: Brick

This weird little movie infuses a mundane suburban teenaged world with a seedy syndicate of drugs, money, and dames. A teenaged loner named Brendan investigates the murder of his ex-girlfriend, who left him to pursue thrills and hard-core drugs in the school’s “upper crust” of the drug dealers, with who Brendan must now get chummy. The entire movie is presented in a terse film noir style. Indeed, it borrows heavily from ’30s detective movies, with informants, femme fetales, and terse, rapid-fire conversations thick with slang, accusations, and denials. When Brendan goes to the Vice Principal, he wrangles information from him like a detective dealing with his go-to lawman.

I spent the first 30 minutes of Brick trying to figure out what the filmmaker Rian Johnson was trying to accomplish by turning a high school into a violent gang-style underworld of crime. At fist I thought he was failing miserably at making a social statement. Then the film noir went over the top, and I realized it was pure spoof and relaxed. Hollywood has long grappled with the difficulty of cinematically rendering the American teenaged experience in new and interesting ways. Because the American teenaged experience is, in a word, boring, so we get cliched drivel about sports, cheerleaders, haunted houses, and puppy love. Unfortunately, while I appreciated the movie’s cleverness, I never enjoyed it, and the vocabulary and cadence of the slang was beyond me. An interesting movie that is more fun to think about on the way home.

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Snack Review: Golden Oreos

Snack manufacturers are a creative bunch. Every time I glance at a candy aisle, there’s a tempting new twist on an old favorite: Dark chocolate Milky Ways, white chocolate Reese’s Peanut Butter Cups, Butterfinger sticks, fudge Cadbury eggs, the log-like Kit Kat… and have you seen the many incarnations of the Hershey’s Kiss? The attempt to make junk food new and exciting to America’s sugar-loaded and fat-ladden palates is sort of pathetic, like a dumpy housewife getting a new hairdo to rekindle her sex life, or a dinky pizza parlor hanging an “Under New Management” sign.

Most new candy fails, but a few manage to successfully innovate and endure. The humble M&M, for instance, was inspired when Forest Mars Sr. saw soldiers in the Spanish Civil War eating pellets of chocolate pressed in sugar to prevent melting. He returned to America to invent the M&M, which became a winner in a public eager for a candy impervious to heat. The M&M’s austere design allows for momentous transformation, and when the Peanut M&M was introduced, it soon outsold its progenitor. Then in the late 80’s came a treat for the nut connoisseur: Almonds.

Almond M&Ms are my current favorite weekday lunch dessert. How I enjoy the twenty minutes of post-lunch grazing on chocolate-covered almonds and a cup of coffee. The presence of almonds assuages the candy guilt instilled by the food police; I can look at the fat content on the nutrition label and assure myself it’s mostly the nutty healthy fat. And with only 200 calories, 2 grams of fibre and trace amounts of riboflavin and niacin, I am fully deluded into believing that this is health food.

But yesterday afternoon, gusty rain sent me slinking to the vending machine in the basement of my office building. I hoped to find Peanut M & Ms, but they are by far the fastest-selling item in the office. All that remained in the candy row were Snickers (nauseating), Hershey bars (ruined forever to me by Dagoba bars), Take 5 (isn’t 5 a little excessive?), Nature Valley granola bars (as if), and Golden Oreos.

Obviously I’m a candy person, not a cookie person. I have never before seen Golden Oreos, yet I found myself titillated. I liked Oreos when I was a kid, but then I found out the reason I liked them was because they were choke full of trans fats, giving them an unmistakable palatable texture that coats the mouth in chocolate grease. Mmmm… trans fats…

Tiredly of staring at the meager pickings, I slipped two quarters into the vending machine, pressed C6, and took a package of Golden Oreos back to my desk. I was delighted by the realization that no tell-tale black Oreo gunk would coat my teeth; should a co-worker happen by, I could bare my corny yellows without fear of looking ghoulish.

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Mount Garfield

The victorious “I climbed a mountain!” photo shoot isn’t quite as impressive with only ten feet of visibility. But rest assured, I am having my internal organs frozen by the brisk summit winds of Mount Garfield, in the Franconia Notch region of the White Mountains of New Hampshire.

Not a good day for expansive views, but a fine day for hiking nonetheless. I’d agree with the guidebook that called Mt. Garfield a notably “pleasant” hike: 10 miles, 5 1/2 hours, 3500 feet trail altitude, and except for the last .2 miles, it’s a steady climb with few obstacles.

Reaching the summit to find the raved-about scenic view engulfed in a heavy mist (visible somewhat in the picture) was a bit disappointing. It had a Lords of the Rings ambience, and I sort of dug eating a sandwich in Middle Earth. Due to the hostile wind chill, I had to grasp my sandwich, like it was a banana. We literally fled the mountain.

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Bean Heiress: Anti-Camping Renegade

When traveling through northern New England, I am wont to pick up a local newspaper, to enjoy a taste of homebrew rural news that rarely filters down to Boston. Mostly, I end up reading about tragic car and drowning accidents, petty battles in local politics, drug busts in remote areas, factory and industrial plant closings, and spitfire citizens, angry about some road or traffic law that deeply disturbs their way of life.

But this weekend, there was a rare treat: I read about Linda Bean Folkers, granddaughter and heir of the LL Bean fortune, antique collector, and noted supporter of the “most radical and insane right wing causes and politicians” (here).

Linda Bean is embroiled in a dispute with the small town of Weld, Maine over a public road with access to popular camping sites and hiking trails that bisects Folker’s 2200 acres. Folkers demanded that the town gate the road, because her land is abused with “illegal dumping, campfires and motorized wheeled vehicles.” When the citizens of Weld voted 102-0 at a special town meeting to deny Folkers’ insistence, not only did Folkers dismantle a 60-year old camping shelter, she had “several mounds of dirt in front of 6-foot-deep ditches” (here) constructed on a public road.

This is not just any crazy rich person who acts as though they own the world, it’s a woman who’s fortune came mostly from hikers, campers and other outdoor enthusiasts. Shouldn’t she encourage these activities? Shouldn’t she be happy that modern life has not made us all immune to the glory of an escape to nature? Yes, campers and hikers abuse the land… but at least they are using it.

It’s not like anyone’s dumping toxic chemicals in her backyard… this probably affects 1% of her vast land holdings. Rich people have the privilege of being optimists; why not assume most visitors respect the land? When we’re allowed to be slobs and land marauders everywhere else in life, it’s hard to remember to stop when we enter nature. If she’s concerned about illegal dumping, she should do a civic service and fund more rangers and trash removal. Maybe she should start programs to educate people about safe campfires, and how loving nature peacefully can be just as satisfying as ripping it apart with a motorbike. It would be a suitable cause for the granddaughter of LL Bean, an avid outdoors man who made billions from those who share in his passion by buying his overpriced outdoor gear.

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Happy Memorial Day

I can’t really explain why the picture on the right startled me so much when it popped up on the Boston Herald homepage in a riveting Memeorial Day celebration round-up.

It’s cute and I’m glad that they decided against the typical picture of the little eugenic blond girls waving their flags with innocent glee, but just struck me as a very strange picture, I think because it lacks context.

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The Rain in Maine…

… Falls pretty much effing anywhere it wants to.

It did not rain the whole time I was in Maine this weekend, but the skies over the campsite constantly threatened us with gray, balloony clouds right on the cusp of bursting. I awoke this morning to a steady cool rain that stopped and started, as if never quite satisfied with torturing us poor campers.

This magnificent view of the town of Camden, to which I could not do justice with my digital camera due to the haze, was attained with surprising little effort: A one-mile hike that only kicked up my heartbeat four or five times.

One cannot sufficiently celebrate a birthday with campfire cooking, so I dined on a delicious Maine lobster with lemon butter, about which I cannot rave enough without sounding like an exuberant foodie.

The only disappointment at Camden Hills State Park was the Multi-Use Trail, touted as suitable for bicycles and horses. It was so rocky and swampy, with six-foot wide water crossings, that I think even taking a horse would be a bit difficult, let alone a cheap mountain bike navigated by a pavement-spoiled scaredy-cat.

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The Vacationer

It wasn’t hard to duck out of the office after lunch. He fired off three superfluous emails to his various superiors that he wrote that morning to prove his presense in the office until at least 1:15pm. He walked around to scope out all desk jockeys who remained, hunched over their computers either pecking away dutifully or staring as they scrolled through web pages, none of who would seriously question a middle manager leaving early the Friday before Memorial Day weekend.

Hell, he should get a prize for just showing up.

Julie had called him three times during lunch: 1- I’m leaving to pick up the kids, 2- I picked up the kids, and 3- Are you sure you have your credit card? When he got off the office elevator after finally finishing his turkey sandwich and chips, his phone buzzed with a new message. It was Julie: Hi honey, we hit some traffic on 93 but we’re getting near your exit so we should there soon. He pictured his chubby wife ensconced in the minivan with her eyes glued to hyperactive Tony in the backseat, pissing off drivers with her irritating way of driving in traffic: Peel out, stop suddenly one inch away from the bumper in front of her, wait for the traffic to move up forty feet, repeat.

That’s pretty much what she was doing ten minutes later when he spied the minivan on Congress Street. His casual arm-raise turned into a frantic wave when the minivan didn’t appear to be pulling over for him. The kids screamed “DAD!” when he opened the door, and he forced a big Dad smile even though they were going to annoy him silly for the next three hours. “I saw you,” Julie sighed as she vacated the driver’s seat. “You ready?”

He felt absurdly like saying no and half-meaning it, but instead he almost barked “Yep!” and buckled his seat belt. He pulled out in front of a Lexus SUV and debated in his head which route to take to the highway, trying to decifer the intentions of his fellow commuters. It’s Memorial Day, so everyone’s headed for the Cape. Then again, they could be going home, then going to the Cape. Or headed directly for the North country, like he was. Or the airport. The variables were unknown so he felt safe taking the Mapquest-approved route.

On the highway, speeding along a pretty good clip, his mind tuned out the constant back-and-forth bickering between Julie and the kids. Tony was in fine form, shouting nonsense, cinching little Lila’s seat belt around her waist so she’d squawk, and trying to jump in his seat so his head would hit the ceiling. Julie was volatile. To her, a vacation was a duty, an unpleasant diversion from the regimented household that she worked so hard to maintain. If she could be anywhere, it would be in the kitchen while the kids played video games in the living room, waiting for him to call to be picked up at the train station.

They pulled over at the first rest stop so Tony could use the restroom and Julie could get a coffee. He stayed in the car with Lila, who never talked except when provoked by her brother, and watched four young males loitering around a white Subaru Forrester packed with camping gear. They talked easily to each other, eating fast food and walking around the car with cell phones. They were all muscled and good-looking, young and smiling.

Julie and Tony walked out of the rest stop, and one of the young men gave them a brief glance and then focused on his French Fries, as it to say: Someone else’s problem.

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